Deeply poignant and astonishingly personal, this “moving story of a death in Tennessee” (Bill Moyers) shows hope can endure, grace can redeem, and humanity can exist—even in the darkest of places

It was a clash of race, privilege, and circumstance when Alan Robertson first signed up through a church program to visit Cecil Johnson on Death Row, to offer friendship and compassion. Alan's wife Suzanne had no intention of being involved, but slowly, through phone calls and letters, she began to empathize and understand him. That Cecil and Suzanne eventually became such close friends—a white middle-class woman and a Black man who grew up devoid of advantage—is a testament to perseverance, forgiveness, and love, but also to the notion that differences don’t have to be barriers.

This book recounts a fifteen-year friendship and how trust and compassion were forged despite the difficult circumstances, and how Cecil ended up ministering more to Suzanne’s family than they did to him. The story details how Cecil maintained inexplicable joy and hope despite the tragic events of his life and how Suzanne, Alan, and their two daughters opened their hearts to a man convicted of murder. Cecil Johnson was executed Dec. 2, 2009.

Foreword by Sister Helen Prejean
Preface by Bill Moyers
Prologue: A Long Way from Home for All of Us

PART ONE: FAMILY
Chapter One: It Started with a Phone Call . . . and Poetry
Chapter Two: From the Back of the Courtroom
Chapter Three: Daddies and Daughters . . . and a Personal Shopper
Chapter Four: His Own Safety Net
Chapter Five: Life in the Big City Chapter Six: Guilt (Mine)
Chapter Seven: The Definition of Family
Chapter Eight: The Cracks in Our Walls

PART TWO: THE NIGHTMARE
Chapter Nine: Surprise! We Should’ve Been Paying Attention
Chapter Ten: “What a Family Is Suppose to Feel Like”
Chapter Eleven: Connecting with Another Execution
Chapter Twelve: Tick Tock
Chapter Thirteen: Friends in High Places
Chapter Fourteen: Protestors
Chapter Fifteen: We Didn’t Think They Would Really Kill Him
Chapter Sixteen: They Showed Up
Chapter Seventeen: Deciding Which Lives Are Worth Sparing
Chapter Eighteen: It Was Time We Knew
Chapter Nineteen: More Puzzle Pieces
Chapter Twenty: Thou Shall Not Kill—No Asterisk

Acknowledgments
Notes
About the Author